For the last several weeks, I believe God is prodding me, preparing me ... poking me regarding the next step for Meadow. Ten years ago, I took the biggest and most riskiest step of faith ever in my life and left a secure income to start Meadow. What is next for Meadow?
I don't know yet. I keep asking God to make it clear to me.
However, the question that keeps popping into my brain - and I believe it is a question from God is, "Will you believe and obey Me?" Regardless of what it is - will I believe God will do it and will I step out and obey? Think about it, why would God make His direction clear to me and to us if we are not going to believe He will make it real and obey Him in doing it? Will I obey regardless of the cost?
I have been hanging out in Romans in my quiet times and there have been several times God has stopped me in my tracks to ponder this question and to seek clarification of His direction. This morning, I came to Romans 7:4. To get a peek into what's going on in my brain, here's what I wrote in my journal today.
(Just a word of understanding .. if you think a pastor should have clear direction from God and all the answers and never struggle with life and understanding God - then don't read my journal because you will come face to face with my own struggle and life journey of trying to understand God and obey Him - and the many times (more than I want to admit) I fall far short. But if you want to get a peek into my brain and heart, walk the journey with me, and pray for me, my family, and for Meadow - then I welcome you to my journey. It is from this journey and my time alone with God that I get my energy and passion and the vision and strategy for Meadow.)
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Romans 7:4 (NIV) "You also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God."
Whatever God is leading me to do and asking me to believe Him for - it has to be something that bears "fruit to God." What is "fruit to God"? ... being Christ-like, holy living...
- Serving others like Christ
- Reaching the lost like Christ
- Obeying the Father like Christ
- Worshipping the Father like Christ
Three words... bringing, teaching, serving. Whatever it is - it has to produce these.
But still I believe the question is ... "Will I believe and obey God regardless of what it is?" Why would God give me clear direction of what He wants me and Meadow to do, if I am not going to fully and unquestionably obey Him? ... regardless of the cost - regardless of what other Christians will say - regardless of what others at Meadow will say - regardless of the financial cost - regardless of the time involved...