Finished the second day of Leadership Summit today. Something is up. My heart is churning and I don't know what God is saying. All I know is that the last session today with Richard Curtis stirred my heart into a state of uneasiness - a holy uneasiness.
I tried to explain it to Sandy but it was difficult to find the words. She knew something was up because I don't cry over stuff like this much (my level of mercy is basically not there) - but this really choked me up to try and explain it to her.
This stirring actually began a year ago at the Leadership Summit with Bill Hybel's session on Holy Discontent and the interview with Bono. This stirring was fed with both positive and negative events and situations over the past year including the Christmas Food Drop, the capital campaign, American Idol "Gives Back", Haiti, and more recently the new awareness of Moldova and my plans to go there to assist firefighters and do ministry.
I have never heard the audible voice of God, but there was a point during this last session when I felt God saying, "John, there is something I want to tell you but you are so busy you don't have time to really listen."
We are leaving tomorrow for some vacation. I am not taking my computer. I will not be blogging. I am taking my Bible, a few books, and my journal. I will be resting (I am really tired), reading, praying, and spending time talking with Sandy and my family.
Later...
